Death Did Me Wrong

Jamilu Shehu Ashaka, words can't begin to explain the depth of pain that i feel at the moment. Sometimes, i wish my phone rings and it is your name on the screen. I hopefully want it to be a lie.
I fainted when i heard of your death. I couldn't believe you died without a goodbye.
The 28th of May, was the day i heard of your demise. I wanted it to be a lie, a stupid joke until i truly saw your grave.



I won't forget you my dear friend. You were more than a brother.You looked out for me, even those days when i piss you off, you still come back & i wonder if anyone can do that for me. You my friend remained my hero until your painful demise.


I remember the 1st day i met you. I was stranded at main campus, just got into town after my photo session in Kaduna & all the campus cabs were done for the day. I had the option of trekking all the way to the hostel. There you were like an angel driving off & you reversed to meet me. God couldn't have been more kind to send me a cute man to save a damsel in distress. There you were, grinning & asking for where i was going. God knows i was desperate. I just needed a ride to my abode. I lied! i told you name was Millie. I got that name from a novel character i read on my trip back to Jos. You drove me back to the hostel, you were such a sweet person. We exchange contacts& i thought that was the last time i was going to hear from you. You called even before i got to my room. silly! 
How much i ignored you. I just needed a damn ride & that was suppose to be the end of it right? Not you, you traced my room..

Your kindness knew no bound. You were silly like every other guy until i heard about Fatimah.I was shocked beyond doubt.God forbid that i be the cause of another girl's heartbreak. We talked about it until the wise thing to do was to let go.


Ashaka, you didn't tell me that night i told you about the business proposal that would be the last time i would speak to you. That would be the last time you call me Millie. You promised me that you would always be there & you did. Remember the night i was stranded at Bauchi road during the Jos crisis, you were out of town & you sent military men to come get me. If not for you, i would probably be a forgotten story now.
You my friend will forever be a part of me.  A man who cared regardless that all i had to offer was my friendship. You cared & gave all of you with nothing in return.
Death, you took my hero, my friend, my brother, my uncle, my sweetheart.
                                                                             DEATH YOU DID ME WRONG!!!
You chose to take him at the wrong time. To think of how much he must have suffered before he took his last breath. Words have failed me...
Goodbye my friend! Rest in the bosom of the lord till i meet you again. Sleep on!!

May God grant your family the fortitude to bear the loss.
To Fatimah,

i don't know you in person, but i know you. he loved you till death. May the comforter comfort you.

Jamilu was shot by armed robbers on his way to Jos from Abuja.. :(